Sometimes it makes me sad...

As it seems, my wonderfully blessed life does not have me living in Ohio close to family in this season. At some points, this saddens me, others I can smile and know that this is where my God has me. I think that I am a different person than what people, including family, know of me. When you see someone, you see them as you have always seen them, and not always for who they really truly are.
Over the last year, many things have happened. First being, Skye and I took a huge step of faith when getting out of the military and moving to Ohio with no job in sight. God took such good care of us, like we would have expected any different, and now has hugely blessed Skye with this excellent job. While home, God spoke to me on two areas of my life, and has since then changed me. Sometimes I think that people see my as Little Hannah Johnson, and not as the woman that God has made me though the many hours, days, and at times months alone. I am a strong woman, by God's hand. I think differently than my family, and am different. But best of all, I am becoming that smooth rock in God's hand.
I missed my nephew's 1st Birthday party today. He was on my mind all day... he's a sweetheart. I pray that God continues to make him strong and sweet, gentle and steadfast. He is a joy to our family. I wish I was there to see him eat his first birthday cake. I wish I could have seen him open up his first birthday present.
I know that THIS is where God has me. I know that one day I will be reunited with my whole family, I pray it's this side of Heaven. In my sad times, I know that God has made me the woman I am, and it is because of this solitude, that I am who I am... His little Lamb!