I was telling Eddie today and we are stuck somewhere between two worlds and we don't belong to either. First, the military. We live a military life. Mission first, deployments, country, unit then family...blah blah blah. It's our life...it's all we know, it's all the kids know. Yet, we are not military and we will never be again. We don't belong.
The farm. We just sold our dream property and house to Skye sister and her family. It was all we ever wanted. It's was 20 gorgeous acres, chickens, working on horses. A dream...then we woke up. We don't belong there either. Where do we belong...
Honestly, I have no idea. That's what we were talking about. So what do you do when you don't have a world you belong to? We wander somewhere in the middle and it causes great stress as we try to figure it out.
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You belong in the here and now. In the moment. Like your post today, I could go on about my discontents but I choose to focus on my blessings. Some days work out better than others in that regard. As we leave this location, our military friends here, are not close, are few, and won't be where we're going. Yet we are also physically far from our church and church family. And we have a wonderful neighborhood and friends from it, but again, not really that many to show for the 5 years we've been here. We all go thru phases, some seem easy to belong to, others feel foreign. No matter the logistics, the fact is, THIS is where I am NOW, so what am I going to do with this opportunity? It's okay to feel lost once in awhile, it can help us regain focus and find what God needed us to find.
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