KLove

When we were in TX we listened to KLOVE all the time. It was our #1 on the radio and on the computer it was a favorite. We had church, and small group, and Wednesday nights, and Skye had praise team, and I had Awana's with the kiddos. We were constantly being pumped with Jesus and filled with encouragement and love and support. I love going to church because I was challenged to think... not just make it though a service. I had no problem getting up and going to church, it was like breathing.
HERE.... well this is a completely different story. Here, where I live, I can't get christian radio. The internet is so slow that it cuts out, and a radio won't work in the house. The church we've gone to a few times is 40 minutes away. Just getting up and going is a struggle for this family (well just me and Skye). Christian music in the car comes in clearly about 1o minutes after we've left the house, so we listen to CD's or Country music. We haven't really connected to the church, don't go any other time than Sundays. We're involved in more "worldly ideas" and Christ's way. I feel so thirsty, so dry, like I just need to be drowned for a day or so in order to breath again.
I have had a bad week. I just don't understand. I got on KLove's website and clicked encouranging words. After about 2 minutes to upload the page, I found scripture... just want I needed. One passage was November 15th Word:
Hope deferred makes the heart sick, but a dream fulfilled is a tree of life. Proverbs 13:12 NLT

November 12th:
And so, Lord, where do I put my hope? My only hope is in you. Psalm 39:7 NLT

November 11th:
I pray that God, the source of hope, will fill you completely with joy and peace because you trust in him. Then you will overflow with confident hope through the power of the Holy Spirit. Romans 15:13 NLT

October 30th:
Why am I discouraged? Why is my heart so sad? I will put my hope in God! I will praise him again… Psalm 42:11 NLT

October 29th:
Wait patiently for the Lord. Be brave and courageous. Yes, wait patiently for the Lord. Psalm 27:14 NLT

This one is where I've struggled... How long do we have to wait. I'm not asking for a huge house, or fancy cars, or designer clothes. I don't want worldly items. I want Skye to have a job he enjoys, and a house for us to live in, and bills to be paid and food on the table. Doesn't seem so difficult, but still we wait. Maybe I have a bad attitude. I'll work on it. All this working makes me tired!!!!