Failures as wrinkles

I've been thinking a lot about my failures. How I've failed as a wife, a mother, a sister, a daughter, a friend. How I can justify myself through any situation by playing the "it's not my fault" game. I see myself totally different then how God sees me. I say: "I am a failure" He says: "You are mine"!

So, what if we look at the things that upset us, annoy us, really rub us wrong about someone else as the wrinkles in the clay of who they were. In the bible it says we are like clay that the Potter (God) is molding. He sees me as this beautiful design that he's in the middle of creating. To him, I am gorgeous. I am not a failure. That would be the word I would write over my forehead to describe myself. What is yours? I'm certain it's not "beautiful", "wonderful", "Gorgeous", "amazing"!

If God looks at me like this...why don't I look at me/other people like this. Why do I see them as the wrinkly, bumpy, lumpy clay that God is molding. Why can't I see people how God sees them? In my opinion, self. My own self pride, fear, jealously gets in the way. And in the end all that does is ruins relationships and hurts people, badly.

I am a big lump of clay...bumpy, lumpy, and wrinkled. God is working on me, and I Hate it. It hurts, it's painful. I want him to stop pushing and pulling and tugging at me...but in the end I'll be what he's designed me to be. Can you see me that way? Can I see others this way? Or do I only look through my thick glasses called "Self" and see that big pile of lumpy clay?