Blessed beyond Compare!

I haven't really been on this thing much. I haven't had much to say, or actually just didn't feel like sharing. These past 6 months have been hard. Harder than Skye and I have led many to believe. We've put up a front with most saying we're fine, but all in all, it's been very hard and still is hard. But this last week, I've really been thinking about the past 6 months. Here's my list of blessings:
1. We have Jesus.
2. We're all together.
3. All our needs are met.
4. We live in a safe place.
5. We're all healthy.
6. Our car works perfectly.
7. We've grown closer to eachother and God.
8. We've realized what is important to US as a small family unit.
9. We pray together. (Something Skye and I rarely did)
10. We love eachother.
If this list doesn't warm your heart, than something else has it. What else could be more important than that??
I went to a HS football game on Friday night, and while sitting there a million memories filled my mind. Memories that were good, and some bittersweet. One being my lack of "Being Cool". I always wanted to be a cool kid. One that others really liked. Although I have had my share of friends, and I was never on the nerd list, who doesn't want to be the coolest kid in the school. I remember, the sting of rejection, I remember the fear of being laughed at. Then something happened. God really gave me a knight in shining armor! He gave me Skye at the early age of 16! Skye made me feel safe, funny, beautiful, and sure. He taught me more about God (I listened to him more than my parents, go figure). He walked life with me, beside me, holding my hand. Sometimes in the past I've held his hand, like the day he left for basic training, or when he was unsure or confused. He's held my hand through life's transitions: Going to college, getting married, moving to ND, having our first baby. All in all it's been Skye (of course God) who's been there.
As I've been looking at my life this week there are two things I am sure of. One: God is always on my side. Two: Skye is always holding my hand. God gave me this dream at the ripe age of 14 to be a wife. He gave me a dream to be a good wife, and mother. I've struggled with that in the fact that sometimes I don't feel like I matter. For instance, I can't help pay the bills, we're struggling financially and there's nothing I can do but PRAY! God has become such a closer friend to me these last few months.
I've come to the conclusion, and I hope I hold on to it tightly! I doesn't matter if I don't wear designer clothes, drive a fancy car, hold a showy job. What matters is that Jesus is my savior, Skye is by my side, and my girls are brought up to love and have compassion, and be generous with everything. See... I may not be able to contribute financially to this family, but my job is so much more important. I have two little girls who need a mommy and need her 24/7. I have a husband who depends on me more than I realize, and a life here in this little apartment that needs me to keep it moving. I may not have much money, but I have a smile and I can speak softly and kindly to others. I can show people Love by acknowledging and giving all I can give.
The sad part to me is, some people don't care. Some people will just walk on by and ignore me. Not knowing anything about me. But that's ok... because God Loves me, Skye loves me, and my girls love me. All in all, that's all I need to survive! Because of this.... I say THANK YOU, God. I am blessed beyond compare and I will live my life thanking you!!!